The End (Sorta)

So I haven’t seen Dreads in like two weeks. Cause we kinda broke up. Or he dumped me. Or put us on pause. Or something.

I kinda knew it was coming, but dammit I haven’t been dumped since high-school when I was 16. It was tough and I was handing out all kinda of shit to him. I could actually hear him crying and sniffling on the other side of the phone.

For two hours.

I wasn’t blaming her for any of this

I called her a lot of things when I was texting him the other day trying to get answers. I called her cunt, whore, bitch and slut. But I wasn’t blaming her and I don’t actually think she is any of those things. She didn’t know about me either. (According to him.)

And even if she did, it’s not her responsibility to maintain the relationship between Dreads and myself. It’s mine and Dreads responsibility. We are the ones that are supposed to care about what is going on between us.

So why did I call her a bunch of bad names in my texts?

Should he have said anything?

If you’re new to the situation, let me quickly get you up to speed-my boyfriend cheated on me. See here and there. I need to get all the crap I’m thinking out of my head.

If what he said was true-the it was only once (or even if it were a couple times) and that he feels incredibly bad and that he will never do it again-should he have told me what he did? Or should he have kept it to himself?

My Rationalization

I’ve not necessarily been perfect. In this relationship. When I met Dreads, I was still banging The Arab. For, oh, about a month or so. Of course I never told Dreads this. Because I’m evil. And I doubt he’d approve.

It’s not like I was fucking The Arab everyday, once or twice in that time frame. And a couple blowjobs.

Why I am very angry at Dreads

Dreads has always been a quiet person. But lately (the past few weeks) he was more like silent. He wasn’t joking around as much as usual. The sarcastic banter than we normally engage in seemed to disappear.

I kept asking him what was wrong.

He kept saying “nothing.”